Just a few reminders

It's been a while, and honestly, a lot is still the same. I still have my same 7pm-7am job, and its ok for now. For a short time it felt like things were out of control and that something had to change to fix it, but really, I just needed to be reminded of some things.
1) Emotions/feelings are rarely synonymous with truth/reality. And decisions made out of emotions/feelings generally aren't as wise as say decisions made out of careful consideration/prayer/truth. My emotions were telling me that my life was out of control and that I needed to change it, but the Truth was telling me to trust in the One who has already proven Himself trustworthy to me and to WAIT for Him to reveal the next steps.
2) My life isn't anybody else's, and therefore, doesn't have to look like anybody else's. It's hard to see and appreciate all that God is doing in my own life when I whine and complain about why it doesn't look like someone else's life, or someone else's marriage.
3) The things I/we go through now are in preparation for what is to come later. And if I, in my own self-centered, self-determining nature, changed things every time I didn't like the way things were going, or every time it was hard, I would miss what God had for me in those moments. And then later on, when it got hard again, I would lack what I could have had by staying the course and trusting in His goodness and mercy and purpose for me.
4) I can't see what's coming, and I don't know what's best for me, but the Lord has promised to draw near to me if I draw near to Him, and in those moments of nearness I am reminded of all that He is to me and all that He has for me. And then the peace comes, and all that isn't falls away, and only the Truth is left.
So the work situation hasn't totally changed, but David and I did decide that I would only work my required 3 nights/week instead of the 4 nights/week I had been working. If we need extra money at any point, I can work extra, but we don't need me to work 4 nights/week right now. So now we are able to spend more time together. I also decided to stop looking at the job postings every time I went to work and to just wait on the Lord to lead me into another department rather than trying to "make it happen." And things aren't so out of control anymore. I just needed to be reminded to step back and look at things through the right eyes.